Current mood:

weird

My First Flame!
For those of you who read and write fanfic, you will understand and hopefully be able to sympathize with this entry. Anyone who doesn't won't. Okay, so on with the story. Earlier this week I got a very nasty, mean-spirited review of one of my fics. I was literally left speechless by what this wench said (and believe me, I am not left speechless very often). I am not suggesting that my stuff is perfect, because I am usually my own worst critic. Constuctive criticism is one thing, but this went beyond the pale. We write this stuff for enjoyment, not because we are trying to make a living from it. This bitch was acting like she was a critic from the New York Times or something. I think what hurt me the most was the condescending way in which this person "lectured" me about the characters that I feel such affection for. Who in the f*ck is she to tell me that I don't know who these characters are, what drives them, what they love, etc. It just really bothered me. I know I shouldn't let it, but it did. I wanted to bash this person on the head with a heavy object, lol. Fortunately, a few wonderful friends stepped in and helped convince me not to just chuck it all and throw my computer out the window. A small part of me still does feel sad and afraid to write anything more, though. It's just not worth the emotional stress, ya know? Sigh...but I can't let this worthless piece of dirt ruin something that I like to do. Why should she win?

On a lighter note, I was contacted this week by the company that turned me down for a job several months back. Interestingly enough, they now have an opening in their Cleveland office and they want to interview me. I couldn't believe it. This is the same company that didn't even have the courtesy to tell me that they had hired someone else for their last opening. I would love to be offered that job, and then tell them, "Sorry, I've accepted a position somewhere else." We'll see what unfolds.